After a long hiatus, I’ve begun writing another tale of the Pa’adhe. This resumption in writing includes an interesting discovery about both my writing and my personality. Or at least of my writing preferences.
Maybe a month ago, I felt the urge to write a new blog entry. I actually sat down and over two days wrote an update on my Vardo project. I even went so far as to identify the various photos I wanted to include and to revise the post several times. Then, rather than post it and the pictures, because I wasn’t quite ready yet and I was having trouble finding my albums on Google Plus with their new layout, I let it slide. So, I have that post ready, but just haven’t felt like finishing it and actually posting.
Then a couple of weeks back, I was drifting off to sleep and a new Pa’adhe story began to form in my mind. Excited by the story and unable to sleep, I got up about 12:30 AM, logged into the computer, and began typing it in.
By 2:30 AM I had finished writing the opening and crawled back into bed. I had written about 500 words of the new story and about 250 words in a new Encyclopedia entry providing background to the people of the story. 750 words plus a little bit of back and forth tweaking.
Now, when I had stopped writing about a year ago, I had been trying to write a story providing Scarle’s background. I had gotten as far as 1,870 words, and then I just quit writing. I didn’t know why, but I just suddenly had no urge to write either blog or story.
So, what changed?
Interestingly enough, nothing. My subconscious solved a problem with Scarle’s story that I didn’t even realize existed, until now.
When I started writing this new story, I hadn’t figured out this part yet, but it include a visit to the Sea Gypsies for help. Part of my writing is intuitive, and it was here that I realized I could pull in Scarle’s history as a way of furthering the Captain’s journey to…well, I’ll not reveal where yet.
In hindsight, after I decided to pull in Scarle’s already written background into this new story and so provide, finally, history on all four main characters in Tales of the Pa’adhe, I realized what had happened and why I hadn’t been writing for so long.
At least I think I know what happened.
You see, if you read my other posts on the Pa’adhe stories, you know I write by coming up with an idea, that I write by the seat of my pants, and it is my characters that dictate what happens, not this author. That’s how I describe my writing style, and I know it’s not truly the characters, but my subconscious directing what gets written. But it’s more fun to say the characters take over.
In writing Scarle’s story the way I did, my characters didn’t like it being done that way and rebelled. I had been writing it not as part of a story, but as if merely sitting down with his family and visiting. That just didn’t fit and as soon as I had the basics down, the Captain and crew decided not to co-operate any further on that story. For each of the other characters, if you read the Tales of the Pa’adhe listed on the right of this blog page, you see that their three backgrounds came out in the course of solving a problem. Scarle’s was being presented as a mere family get-together and that just wasn’t my usual style. I had actually been writing Scarle’s background just to provide the fourth crew member’s background and for no other reason. It just didn’t fit with the structure of the other Pa’adhe tales or the way I write and clearly I recognized that, at least subconsciously.
Now this part I’m guessing at, but it seems to match my personality and how I dealt with the other time this happened. When I am blocked like this, I don’t want to work on any other writing until I get this fixed. Apparently, if I have an unfinished writing task, working on some other writing is just something I don’t want to do.
Wait, that’s not completely true, so maybe it’s related to the size or type of problem. If I’m just having a wordsmithing problem, I have no problem taking a break and working on something else. But when it’s something fundamentally wrong like this, a major structural issue that looks complete but isn’t, something that my subconscious calls a halt to, then all writing shuts down.
The interesting discovery I made about myself is that apparently if I’m not true to the structure of my tales, I won’t finish the tale. This is actually the second time this has happened, but it’s only now that I think I understand what happened both times. My subconscious, aka the Captain and crew, recognized that while what I was writing was something I needed, I was going about telling it the wrong way. Thus, my writing got hijacked until I figured out how to make it fit the proper structure. The previous time, I had about half the story written before I tossed it. I still have the story, as is, but it’s since been incorporated into one of the other tales and indeed gets presented much better that way than the original writing.
I think this time it took much longer because shortly after I hit the wall on Scarle’s background tale I also entered the stressful period of prepping for retirement. Then after that, I focused on building my Vardo for a while, actually getting the construction started. Then came the various holidays and a certain amount of ennui.
A couple of weeks back the Captain and crew decided enough was enough and started a new tale, one that would allow me to pull in Scarle’s background story. It’s a story that makes that background relevant to not only the question of who Scarle is and where he came from, but also provides some more history of the Sea Gypsies. Then I can use that to let the Captain…but I get ahead of myself. That tale is not yet complete and though I have an idea where it’s going, I don’t yet know the details so I better not say anything.
Besides, I know the Captain and crew of the Pa’adhe will hijack the storyline if I do and take it somewhere else. And I want to see…um, never mind.
The weather is starting to get good again, albeit not yet stable, so I will be working on the Vardo once more. Soon I will actually post that already written blog detailing the work thus far.
The time spent on the Vardo build and exploring the Owyhees as the weather improves may cut into my writing time. However, the Captain, Xinu, Scarle, and Cook are insistent that I tell this new tale so I feel that I’m back, writing-wise, and that the Pa’adhe is indeed once again sailing.
Fair winds and a following sea!